The Agnostic that Loves God

     An agnostic is a person that remains neutral in the existence of God or some deity. They cannot prove or disprove that God exists so they are neither an atheist nor a believer in God. It’s a little contradictory, therefore, than to call myself an agnostic that loves God. Make no mistake, I don’t believe in God or any deity.

     But billions of people believe and have believed in their own versions of God and, in the name of this god, they do great things and commit terrible acts. We can see this today in certain charity organizations and the Taliban, examples of the different interpretation of God’s will. When I say I love God, I think of the former and I also think of people who are going through a hard time. Often, these people pray to God and hope for a miracle.

     It’s this faith that makes me love God. This faith that people believe in with such fervor, that causes them to help each other indiscriminately (at least most of the time). This faith that someone a lot bigger than all of this cares for you and everyone, not only in your life but your afterlife. This faith that inspires many to lead better lives and saves quite a few. It’s this faith that gives hope to the hopeless, a way out for those trapped, a reason to keep going. That’s why I love God.

     However, it’s this same faith in a god that causes religious wars and terrorism. It strikes fear into people by threatening an eternity of pain in the afterlife. Countless have died in history and today because of a god that might actually be malevolent or not all-powerful. A famous argument by the Ancient Greek Epicurus against God goes like this:

“Is God willing to prevent evil, but not able? Then He is not omnipotent.

Is He able, but not willing? Then He is malevolent.

Is He both able and willing? Then whence cometh evil?

Is He neither able nor willing? Then why call Him God?”

     This argument, combined with the faith I see in the stricken, created a minor religious crisis in me last year and it developed into what I believe today: God may or may not exist and it’s okay if he does or doesn't. What matters is what happens in our lives. If people make good decisions because of God, then I say let this notion continue, so that they may live a good life.

    Maybe it’s inaccurate to say that I, the agnostic, love God. I think it’s better to say that I love the faith people put in Him and the good lives they lead because of it. So long as the uncertainty of God’s existence exists, people will continue to do good things and that’s why I love God. 

"Draw with Me" Theories

Before we dive into outlandish theories, please spend ten minutes watching this video: Draw with Me. It is divided into three parts: Draw with Me, Draw with Me 2 (2:55) and Drawn with Me: I Love You (3:19). It is absolutely vital to watch all three to understand and appreciate the plot and the following fan theories.

Draw with Me is one of my favorite animations by a non-corporation. Between the thought-provoking plot and cute visuals, there’s a lot to love in this mini-series. But I wanted to focus on the story in this post, because there are many uncertainties that I wanted to share my thoughts on.

The premise of Draw with Me is that a boy and a girl are separated by a glass that repairs itself after being broken (1:52) and that the only way the two can communicate are through whimsical drawings and writing backwards. Attempts to go over the glass or by speaking fail and they must resort to drawing (3:00).

Onto some major theories: Near the end of the first part, Lilian (the girl, right-handed) gives a present to Zefyr (the boy, left-handed) (2:53). The present is an arm and if you look at Lilian’s left arm for the rest of the animation, you can see it is never again clearly depicted. She is either wearing a cloak or a shirt that doesn’t necessarily have a left arm in it. Meanwhile, Zefyr reappears with a functional left arm in the third part. While this can be attributed to natural healing, Lilian is never again shown with her left arm. Somehow, Lilian was able to give her left arm to Zefyr so that he may draw again.  Being a world of anthropomorphic animals, we can't rule out that technology had advanced far enough in their time to be able to reattach an arm.

I think the biggest question, however, is “How are they able to talk to each other again in the third part?” or “Is the glass still there?” I like to think that Lilian and Zefyr both built half of a home on each side of the glass, thus blocking out any outside noise, which had prevented them from being able to hear each other previously. Whoever created the glass must have approved of this, but not of a tall enough house that either Lilian or Zefyr could climb over. There are not many people powerful enough to create an unbreakable glass and enforce it unless a government is involved. A government that was able to separate the two species with some new technology, such as unbreakable glass.

The one segment that eludes explanation for me, however, is how Zefyr is able to write “I love you” on Lilian’s drawing near the end (10:16). Added with Zefyr’s statement “If we had love back then without the friggin’ glass,” (10:21) it implies that the glass isn't there anymore, possibly that their oppressive government had been overthrown and the glass removed.

With reference to real life, is this an allegory for the Berlin Wall and some forbidden love between two people from opposite sides of the Wall? Initially, I thought so. But a passing comment from a person and their relationship with their long distance friend made me realize that Draw with Me was an allegory for long distance relationships.

Typically, these types of couples communicate through Skype or some other type of video chat, to be able to see each other but frustratingly be unable to touch. The unbreakable glass is the glass of a computer screen. The pains Lilian and Zefyr go through to continue their relationship is reflected in  the pains of long distance couples. 

But hey, it’s just a theory. A fan theory! Endless theories exist about what could’ve happened and what might happen to our two lovers. Do or did they really have a government? What if the two species has ended a war recently and wanted to end all contact between the two by agreeing to create a glass wall? Did the two species later realize their mistake and break down the glass? Who knows? It’s up to you to decide what you believe.



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